Friday, June 26, 2009
我中学时期的好朋友都离开家乡了,为了追求梦想,为了过生活,为了逃避,什么都有.
起初我以为他们在他乡的生活是不错的,至少应该不会为了以前的事情而烦恼.
可是后来,我觉得我可能错了,他们可能并没有过的更好,可能旧的伤痕还在心里,还没痊愈...
倔强是一个很不要得的习惯,受了苦或委屈,都不会说出来,因为要保留自己的尊严,为了不然别人担心,有什么苦都往肚子里吞.
我想你应该觉得自己做了一件很错的事情
一直很伤心,后悔,责怪自己
如果说能够回到过去,你会想做什么,会不想做什么?
其实有时候真的有点顶不顺你,觉得你恨烦的
可是不知道为什么除了你之外我们都不能接受别人
可能因为我们是同一种人?
人要向前走,过去让它过去,伤心的事情不要回头望
你这样,朋友看了难过担心,到最后变成不耐烦
就算他知道了,他也不会因为你记着他而开心
朋友,坚强活下去,寻找自己的将来
其实你去了怡保之后,我们并不是时常联络
曾经我以为你是开心的,因为是你自己选择了这条路
可是看了你的部落格,我不能肯定你是开心还是难过?
我也不懂你现在过得到底是什么样的生活?
伤心有没有人给你肩膀?
开心的时候没有人会记得你的笑容?
疯狂的时候有没有人像我们一样陪你一起癫?
无聊的时候有没有像我们一样的节目?
以前是真的很开心,没有面对社会的烦恼
没有种种枷锁在我们身上,没有不能挽回的过去
16岁后发生了很多事情,很多我们不能挽回的事情
当我们以为离开和逃避就是最好的方法的时候
才知道我们的离开对在原地等待的人是那么难受
人很奇怪,总是失去才会珍惜,失去才知道后悔
我们当初拥有的快乐竟然要用悲哀写下结局
如果有的选,你要拥有的是短暂的快乐吗?
如果能回到过去,你会怎么选择?
我曾经很后悔,眼看自己珍惜的人有事情而我却无能为力
如果我们是漫画里的她们,我想我真的会把你绑在身边
可惜我们不是
如果大魔王真的存在
我会向他祈祷
希望那个独一无二的草莓杯没有碎
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
i am freaking angry now. well, i have a chat with my fren just now. he was my primary schoolmate, secondary schoolmate, n, erm, i think he can consider as my best fren cause he always came to my home when we were stil kids. but we dont contact each other often after graduate from secondary school.
all of this start with a question, n it was asked by me. i felt regret after i asked it.
(E=me, B=him)
E: y dont u go back to study?
B:study is just wasting my time, the salary is stil the same after getting the cert.
E: if everyone thinks like u, y they stil go study n get the cert?
B: cause they hv nthg to do, they dont know what to do after graduate so they chose back to study.
E:they go study because they can go higher position with the cert, they can start with a higher basic with the cert, n blablabla.
B:u dont know de la, u hvnt come out to work
then what we talked after that i already forgot cause i was quite angry that time, i dont know why he think like that, i m not sure is it his stupid funny net fren made him think like this.
but i can remember how we end this,
B:dont argue la, we see after old la
what he means is, he is right, n this wil lead him to a very good future. N for me who believe study is usefull n important, wil live a suffer life in the end.
what the!!! he thinks that everyone can sucess in their life without getting a high education?
it just 0.000000001% of all the human in earth can do it!!
i was so worried that he worked as a sales boy in a boutique wil make his future dark like shit. n he give me such a good answer, n he thinks that he is right n wan me to see who wil be the winner when we are old? bull shit!!
well, i just come here to express my feeling. i will feel better after doing this.
please dont tell me if u got the same thinking with my fren.
thx
p/s: sorry for my broken english^^ i cant think of any better/suitable word in a situation like this.